Born out of my increasing inability to find the answers to questions I find impossible to ignore, this song most directly addresses the dilemmatic nature of faith. The title refers to “integer”‘ in its original Latin meaning - untouched and whole - to represent the intangible, perfect state of being that faith dangles before us.
lyrics
As I, my undulating mind, lay caught in self repose
A vision grasped my unguarded mask, and tore me from my throes
I broke upon a cloudy dawn, before the dew had dried
And cleft the mistʼs white knuckled fists, by centuries fortified
I called aloud into the clouds that circled ʻround the sky
But no reply was mine to hide, for no one spoke but I
I sought the source of my life force in all that lived and breathed
And echoed wide the mountain side, but no one answered me
The silence tore a hole in me that I could not repair
And all my insecurities burst from my mouth like air
“Will you take from me more than I give to you?
Will you break me if I put my trust in you?
If I love you will you turn your back on me?
Am I a snippet of thread or is fate just a fallacy?
All that you say and all that you do
And all that you think will come right back to you
When your life is trite, you will see a white light
All your worries will be overcome with a sense of peace
How can it be? Iʼm a man of good deeds
But such tremulous faith does not make sense to me
Oh am I just a fool? For I know not whatʼs true
Yet I feel I must choose, oh what am I to do?”
This I shouted wide, my helpless cry, that existential moan
To abdicate to blinded faith, or go the road alone?
credits
from Eye On The Platform,
released August 16, 2012
Composition: Jackson, Lead Vocals: Jackson, Harmony Vocals: Hagay
Rhythm Guitar: Jackson, Lead Guitar: Hagay, Piano: Jackson
Gorgeous fingerstyle guitar playing from this Portland, Oregon musician that captures the spirit of American Primitive in dazzling detail. Bandcamp New & Notable Aug 30, 2021